Stuckness

Stuckness..yeah..what does that mean? It means I've come to a crossroads and don't know what direction to take.. It makes me feel sad really.  I believe in moving forward.. But I know sometimes we have to spend some time where we are in order to get things in order..Some times, we need to spend time where we are because we are moving to fast.  I don't think I am moving to fast.  I've stopped moving all together. I don't know why. So, I've had to ask the same questions over and over.  "What is my next move?".  "Where do I go from here?" Why am I here right this minute?  There is something that I am missing.  I have yet to figure out what it is. Sometimes I am in a fog. My thoughts are confused and not clear.  This is a place where my life is in flux. I know that there are people in my life who have no direction, no order, no goals.  These people cannot move on on their own.  I don't know what to do with them.  Do I abandon them? They've abandoned themselves. Do I stop caring? I don't know what to do.  So I pray.

 Lord, Father God.  Right now, right here, I am laying my life before you for review.  I am stuck in a place and don't know what direction you want me to go.  I have not paid the proper notice to what your direction is for my life.  I have pushed away or ignored any clues you have provided for me and so now I find myself right here right now, with no clue as to what to do with the things in my life the do not nourish me any longer and STUCK!!! Please Father, show me to the right way to go to un-stick my life and move beyond this place where I am at. Thank you. Amen

I pray.  Because that is all I can do. Pray.. because it makes me feel like I am doing something. Pray..because when I pray, I have some peace.  Pray..because sometimes that is the only answer and right now for me it is the only answer.  I want to hurt people, I know when I start to feel like this, I do things that are not a glory to GOD.  So I pray.