I have been feeling like this for some time. Like everything is suffocating me.
I can't breathe.
I walk into my house and the people there feel like they are hiding shit from me. Like they are having this big ass secret party that I wasn't invited to, but I am paying for. I can't figure out on the surface why I feel like this. But I know why I do. Because what I have is not mines. It never was. It was some one else's fake ass life and they just threw it off on me.
I often find myself on the verge of crying for no reason. Tears will just well up in my eyes. Then I have to fake like I got something in my eyes or put the eye drops in so that no one will be able to tell I was just crying. Cause why again? Fuck if I know. If this isn't the definition of Bi-fucking-polar, I just don't know what the hell is. All these people walking around wearing these fucked up labels, do they even know.
"Oh hi, I'm bi-polar today. Tomorrow I'll be anxiety disorder, thank you for asking."
How am I suppose to deal with your shit and my shit too? How can someone even consider trying to control someone else's life. OMG!!! (that's some funny shit, that OMG is now considered a word..LOL wait that's some funny shit too that LOL is now considered a word, anyway back to OMG) How the fuck on God's green earth are we suppose to keep all the pieces together, when they are all over the damn place.
I hate liars. I know hate is a strong word, but that's how I really feel. I HATE LIARS. more than anything else on earth. Liars cause hurt, fights, wars, drama. I HATE LIARS. and ungrateful motherfuckers. Liars are the worst though, I have a hard time forgiving a lie. Ungrateful, not so much. You just say thank you and move on. Liars though, cause so much pain, they don't even know.
I know a man who lies just on GP. Doesn't even have to. Just does, cause he thinks it will keep the peace. But then when he is caught in his lie, he will say, "what I do?" Like he is innocent. But if you lie, you are not innocent, you are a coward. Cause cowards lie.
My momma use to say, "if you can't say anything nice, don't say nothing at all". Well I think they should change that to" if you gonna lie, just shut the fuck up"..Yeah? why the hell not. Who the hell wants to hear your damn coward ass lie? Not me. I got other stuff I could be doing. Listening to your lies is not high on my list of things to do. In fact, I don't recall it being on my list at all.
Whoo, I can feel myself breathing. I just had the deepest breath I've had in a long time. Whoa nelly, I think I gonna be dizzy.. I need to get the bullshit and drama from my life.
I need for you to let me go. Let me go. I can't carry your shit and mines too. let me go.
T aka L
I can't breathe.
I walk into my house and the people there feel like they are hiding shit from me. Like they are having this big ass secret party that I wasn't invited to, but I am paying for. I can't figure out on the surface why I feel like this. But I know why I do. Because what I have is not mines. It never was. It was some one else's fake ass life and they just threw it off on me.
I often find myself on the verge of crying for no reason. Tears will just well up in my eyes. Then I have to fake like I got something in my eyes or put the eye drops in so that no one will be able to tell I was just crying. Cause why again? Fuck if I know. If this isn't the definition of Bi-fucking-polar, I just don't know what the hell is. All these people walking around wearing these fucked up labels, do they even know.
"Oh hi, I'm bi-polar today. Tomorrow I'll be anxiety disorder, thank you for asking."
How am I suppose to deal with your shit and my shit too? How can someone even consider trying to control someone else's life. OMG!!! (that's some funny shit, that OMG is now considered a word..LOL wait that's some funny shit too that LOL is now considered a word, anyway back to OMG) How the fuck on God's green earth are we suppose to keep all the pieces together, when they are all over the damn place.
I hate liars. I know hate is a strong word, but that's how I really feel. I HATE LIARS. more than anything else on earth. Liars cause hurt, fights, wars, drama. I HATE LIARS. and ungrateful motherfuckers. Liars are the worst though, I have a hard time forgiving a lie. Ungrateful, not so much. You just say thank you and move on. Liars though, cause so much pain, they don't even know.
I know a man who lies just on GP. Doesn't even have to. Just does, cause he thinks it will keep the peace. But then when he is caught in his lie, he will say, "what I do?" Like he is innocent. But if you lie, you are not innocent, you are a coward. Cause cowards lie.
My momma use to say, "if you can't say anything nice, don't say nothing at all". Well I think they should change that to" if you gonna lie, just shut the fuck up"..Yeah? why the hell not. Who the hell wants to hear your damn coward ass lie? Not me. I got other stuff I could be doing. Listening to your lies is not high on my list of things to do. In fact, I don't recall it being on my list at all.
Whoo, I can feel myself breathing. I just had the deepest breath I've had in a long time. Whoa nelly, I think I gonna be dizzy.. I need to get the bullshit and drama from my life.
I need for you to let me go. Let me go. I can't carry your shit and mines too. let me go.
T aka L
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