I recently began reading again, something that was/is one of my favorite things to do. I taught my children to read early, that's how much I love books.
But in recent years it had kinda gotten away from me. Much to my own dismay, I lost a lot of myself when that happened. But recently one of my favorite writers was on a public broadcast station and I caught the show and it made me wanna get the book he was pushing for a donation. So I bought it. After reading just 10 pages, I realized that I had lost my true self in a haze of something, I'm not quite sure what just yet or maybe I just don't wanna say, but lost just the same. So after reading for just 10 pages, I wanted to write some stuff down before I forget it. I published a beach bucket list not to long ago. Well this will be my life bucket list.
The VISION FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
I know this may seem dramatic, but it's not really. Most people don't really know what they want for themselves. They just kinda go through life just doing whatever happens to be in their path, not happy or sad, just doing. If you are a parent, you know what I mean. While raising your kids your own life sort of takes a back burner approach. After the kids are grown you never really get back on track to your own life. Thus the reason many people go through that mid-life crisis. Because it's like all of a sudden you wake up and realize, you don't have that much time/life left, so you try to cram it all in at once. Well, I'm still young enough to enjoy stuff, you know like rolling down a hill and laughing at stupid stuff just because I thought it was funny. You know kid stuff, even though I know I am not a kid. So here is my vision for the rest of my life
1. I will not do any thing that does not bring me some sort of joy. Note I did not say pleasure. Joy and pleasure are two different things. You can get joy from fresh washed clothes, or volunteering your time to a cause. You may not get much pleasure from doing the actual task though. The joy comes from the accomplishment of the task.
2. I will not attempt to please anyone but myself and GOD. If it is pleasing to GOD, then it is pleasing to me, nothing else need be said about this one
3. I will rid myself of all negative people and things in my life/circle/space. Negativity drains the creative energy that flows throughout the universe. If you have negative people and things around you, then you cannot access the positive things because the negative is taking up all of your available space we are allotted. You got to make room.
4. Let go and Let GOD. I know this sounds like a cliche, but really, if you don't let GOD carry the heavy burdens for you, you just weight yourself down with all these heavy burdens and you feel stuck. You can't move forward. GOD's STRENGTH is far greater than mine, so I think I will let GOD do what he has asked me to do and let him handle the heavy lifting for me.
5. Focus on the good stuff and let the other fall by the waste-side. It is amazing how when we no longer give the negative any validity, it just kinda sulks away.
6. Rid myself and my surroundings of clutter. I have an amazing amount of clutter in my world. Sometimes I wonder what all this stuff is. But I know for a fact that most of it is just a symptom of a greater issue. I cover myself with clutter to shield myself from harm. If a person can get pass my clutter they have a chance in hell of reaching through to me. But recently that logic was disproved, cause there are some just plain nasty mother fucker's around me right now that I know DO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT REACHING THROUGH TO ME. They only care about their own survival. THAT'S IT. so clutter be gone. Haha. we'll see what happens after that.
7. Give up a smoking habit. I know this is on my beach bucket list, but it deserves to be repeated and repeated often until I quit.
8. Make a plan for my house. I keep making list. I am so good at making list.
9. Make a list and then implement it..EXECUTION IS THE KEY.. I can make all the list I want to. If I am not going to do any of it WHAT THE HELL IS THE DAMN POINT???
10. renew my spiritual growth. I need to find a new church home. I want to find a center, not necessarily a church, but a learning center where I can learn about true faith and belief. Not just religion. Where they walk the walk, not just talk the talk.
Ok, that's it for right now. I am on a journey, life is a journey. I have so many things I want to do. I think I will begin with turning off this damn tv. and then hmm,maybe my computer. Now that will be hard, but I think I will take a break from all the games and other distractions that go on in my world. And focus on me.
But in recent years it had kinda gotten away from me. Much to my own dismay, I lost a lot of myself when that happened. But recently one of my favorite writers was on a public broadcast station and I caught the show and it made me wanna get the book he was pushing for a donation. So I bought it. After reading just 10 pages, I realized that I had lost my true self in a haze of something, I'm not quite sure what just yet or maybe I just don't wanna say, but lost just the same. So after reading for just 10 pages, I wanted to write some stuff down before I forget it. I published a beach bucket list not to long ago. Well this will be my life bucket list.
The VISION FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
I know this may seem dramatic, but it's not really. Most people don't really know what they want for themselves. They just kinda go through life just doing whatever happens to be in their path, not happy or sad, just doing. If you are a parent, you know what I mean. While raising your kids your own life sort of takes a back burner approach. After the kids are grown you never really get back on track to your own life. Thus the reason many people go through that mid-life crisis. Because it's like all of a sudden you wake up and realize, you don't have that much time/life left, so you try to cram it all in at once. Well, I'm still young enough to enjoy stuff, you know like rolling down a hill and laughing at stupid stuff just because I thought it was funny. You know kid stuff, even though I know I am not a kid. So here is my vision for the rest of my life
1. I will not do any thing that does not bring me some sort of joy. Note I did not say pleasure. Joy and pleasure are two different things. You can get joy from fresh washed clothes, or volunteering your time to a cause. You may not get much pleasure from doing the actual task though. The joy comes from the accomplishment of the task.
2. I will not attempt to please anyone but myself and GOD. If it is pleasing to GOD, then it is pleasing to me, nothing else need be said about this one
3. I will rid myself of all negative people and things in my life/circle/space. Negativity drains the creative energy that flows throughout the universe. If you have negative people and things around you, then you cannot access the positive things because the negative is taking up all of your available space we are allotted. You got to make room.
4. Let go and Let GOD. I know this sounds like a cliche, but really, if you don't let GOD carry the heavy burdens for you, you just weight yourself down with all these heavy burdens and you feel stuck. You can't move forward. GOD's STRENGTH is far greater than mine, so I think I will let GOD do what he has asked me to do and let him handle the heavy lifting for me.
5. Focus on the good stuff and let the other fall by the waste-side. It is amazing how when we no longer give the negative any validity, it just kinda sulks away.
6. Rid myself and my surroundings of clutter. I have an amazing amount of clutter in my world. Sometimes I wonder what all this stuff is. But I know for a fact that most of it is just a symptom of a greater issue. I cover myself with clutter to shield myself from harm. If a person can get pass my clutter they have a chance in hell of reaching through to me. But recently that logic was disproved, cause there are some just plain nasty mother fucker's around me right now that I know DO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT REACHING THROUGH TO ME. They only care about their own survival. THAT'S IT. so clutter be gone. Haha. we'll see what happens after that.
7. Give up a smoking habit. I know this is on my beach bucket list, but it deserves to be repeated and repeated often until I quit.
8. Make a plan for my house. I keep making list. I am so good at making list.
9. Make a list and then implement it..EXECUTION IS THE KEY.. I can make all the list I want to. If I am not going to do any of it WHAT THE HELL IS THE DAMN POINT???
10. renew my spiritual growth. I need to find a new church home. I want to find a center, not necessarily a church, but a learning center where I can learn about true faith and belief. Not just religion. Where they walk the walk, not just talk the talk.
Ok, that's it for right now. I am on a journey, life is a journey. I have so many things I want to do. I think I will begin with turning off this damn tv. and then hmm,maybe my computer. Now that will be hard, but I think I will take a break from all the games and other distractions that go on in my world. And focus on me.
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